The worst lies in the waiting

There has been a flurry of activities of late. But nothing is in comparison to when all you can do is just wait. Waiting for news, waiting for updates, waiting for any pieces of news we can get. And that to me is the worst. We can't do much while waiting. Eating, sleeping, standing, sitting, all just doesn't seem right. And the barrage of people wanting updates is also scary. As there is nothing to update during the wait, all these people demanding to know information is stressful. 

On another hand, I found myself asking about my feelings on holding on to things. It's quite scary when all I wanted was the guy to be as miserable as me, or I just want to hurt him back for hurting me long time ago. And sad enough, I only realized it today and that's when I realized I'm a very scary person. I really thought I had gotten over it and let all things go. It's only when I realized what I was up today.