Counting my blessings

I'm a very lucky woman. I had never say that and realized how lucky I am till now.  I had no major illnesses, major distraught and definitely nothing catastrophic has befallen on me. What I realized that when I truly need someone by my side, God will send him/her. I always thought that I had enough of friends to last me a lifetime, precious friends that I sometimes held more dearly than my own family. But I realized now, nothing replaces my family and it takes some major fall for me to realize it. At one time, I thought my breakup with AB was the biggest heartache I could ever felt. Boy, was I wrong. Losing a family member was ten times worst and I bounced back. I had always said, that I always had some guy, one after another or sometimes simultaneously, since I was 17. But to be really honest, I made those guys be there. I don't think they had wanted to be there very much especially with my drama.

I had spent 5 years finding myself with each breakup a lot easier than before, making the men to be just that men. Now with my own personal problem, I realized the most important people in my life are my family and a few very close friends. Life is fragile and precious and it took 33 years of my life to realize that. My family, goes without saying, love them or hate them, they are there when I needed them the most. Stepping up to help and for once, I'm glad I have them. As for my friends, I'm really a lucky woman to have that few friends that I can trust, share, cry, rant and still support me. 

As I'm sitting here inflight routed for KL, a thought struck me. I used to have some guys in my life. This is the very first time I'm without any guy but my family and friends. And it feels good. Really good. And you know what, it's ok and its alright at the end of it. I'm just going to continue doing my thing and be happy about life, grateful that I'm still alive and blessed with all the good things around me. Good luck, bad luck, who knows. But I do know, it's been good so far and it can only get better.