Sunday, November 23, 2014

2014 : A year of reflection and perspective

I started this year with a new job and a new adamant persistence to change my outlook in life. I can't have the woe is me attitude anymore and I try to live up to this #newpj2014. It has been a challenging year to say the least. So busy that it is now coming to December in a blink of an eye. It is amazing how much things happened and how it still amazes me every single day. 

The job I took on was a gamble and it had paid of in spades. Not in the monetary sense, definitely not monetary sense. But it has taught me a few things. One, it really made me realized I have patience in me. Managing my bunch of monkeys and all their idiosyncrasies have been at times the most rewarding and the most frustrating thing that I've ever experienced. However, looking back on the things that I've been through with them, I'm glad I did and I wished I could have done better. I've learned a lot from them as well and I'm happy to say one is moving on to greener pastures (maybe!) and another will be promoted. I stand proud and I hope that it would work out for them. 

As for my family, my mom is turning out surprisingly, a happy trooper! I'm so proud of her and how she overcome so many of her mental blocks and how she is still standing and more independent as days goes by. I can't believe she went through all that she did. She will continue to make me proud. 

My love life took a not too surprising route. I've just started dating someone. I'm not sure being in a relationship with him will entails. Everyday I'm still learning something new about him and how we should interact, how we both react to different things and our behaviour and our very own idiosyncrasies to deal with. It has really been a journey. All preconceived ideas and ideals about him was thrown out of the window and I thought I knew him pretty well. Boy, was I wrong! Of course, wanting attention and wanting to meet him was primary but then again, I've learned that sometimes, its ok too, if I don't get to meet him. After all, this is a marathon not a sprint. Trust me, my typical reaction of Flight or Fight comes in every other day. And I have to tell myself that its ok to slow down.

As for my own self, this year had been interesting. I started the year wanting to change my outlook, one day at a time. And I still try to adopt this, one day at a time, one moment at a time. Well, I had learned how to make soaps, scrubs, body oil, body lotion, lip balms and the multitude different uses of each essential oil. I had failed miserably at the facial care though. Instead of the glowing skin review I should be writing, I ended up with acnes and big fat red ones too. Although now I'm on medication etc, at least I can say now, I've tried. I might have failed but I had given it a try. I had also started on a 100 days challenge to transform both my mind and body. Well, at the end of it, I might have a face full of acne, I have a healthier outlook for my body and I'm happier because I've learned to let go. And my happiness does translate to me feeling a lot lighter and I really embrace the day by day mentality. 

And with that, I aim to end the year with a big bang and hopefully, all the pieces that I've been planning will fall right into place. 

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