Contented

Recently I had a chat with a girlfriend, she mentioned that I look a lot happier recently, tired but happy. I realized at that time, I have been happy recently. Not the ecstatic happiness but more of a contented happiness. And to answer that question, no, I'm not seeing anyone special yet. But it's more of the I'm at ease with things around me. I made a decision that I will be single for 2014 and start finding my own comfort zone within myself. I have never looked back since then.

I'm comfortable with work, geekymaven is still an advisor. I've made progress albeit very slow with what I want to do, but at least I'm moving. I travelled to Korea and I'm going to add 2 more new countries my list. Money will always be an issue but it's a manageable issue. My mom is also finding her own space in her singlehood now. It's funny to observe her antics at times and it cracks me up the other half of time.

Somewhere inside me, I have found patience that I never knew existed and a higher tolerance to people. I laugh more now and louder too. It's amazing how much you can accomplish once you decide it that you don't want to let it faze you. Letting go is tough work though! 

On a separate note, had a chat with D (well, I did mention yet earlier!) and he asked me what changed. I couldn't pinpoint it specifically but I just decided to cut myself some slack. I can't control a lot of things and I should only look into within my circle of concern. D asked how is he my solution? My quick retort back is he is not my solution as I don't know what it is but I'm game to try. His other question was, cautious or throwing caution to wind. I'm definitely cautious. I'm still a WIP but maybe, just maybe, I've also grown up too. I know one thing that I want and need, open and honest communication. And then, we can take it on from there. One small freaking step at a time.