Embracing..

From the start of the 2013 till now, we have been adjusting to life and embracing its changes and differences. Dad has moved on and left a big void, mom is still feeling the lost and sisters have regained their normalcy and a step up in their work pace. I've been busy with work, companying mom and then stolen time with my new guy.

I must say, I'm learning a lot with this guy. He was a friend first and foremost and it's amazing that he pays attention to what I had said, remember and very patient with me and my idiosyncrasies. What's even more amazing is how supportive this relationship had been and being there for each other and just enjoy each others company. We constantly joke about how we can complement each other especially his calmness against my explosive nature. And his patience with my impatience and grumpiness. I'm learning a lot with him, like how to be in a relationship, how to keep it simple and how to wait and not chase for things.

Well, I'm now going out with my best friend and now I really believe in the never say never phrase. I used to say I won't date him, I won't be able to get along with his laid back attitude and I definitely won't be able to stand his unshakeable calm. But what I didn't realize that it was all these things that attracted me to him. I'm actually not afraid to call him darling hubby and he calls me darling wifey. That started out as a joke but its just comfortable and easy calling him that without the usual shudder and thinking that he is some psychopath. It's been 2 months already and I'm really embracing him in my life. We even talked about what we want in life and the future.

Until recently, I thought I was one tough chic that is proud and happy with her independence and freedom. But it does feel good to share this life with someone now. In fact, I used to say that if I do settle down etc, I won't be living with the in laws till hell freezes over. But after his recent parents scare, I actually agreed with him and he is now planning on how to get his parents to stay with him. I'm surprised that I'm encouraging that and just accepting it.

I'm happy, excited and a bit fearful of what the future holds. But I'm now a firm believer that God has been trying to teach me a lesson all these while. He won't close one door on me without keeping the windows open. I've had grand plans of leaving the country and starting all over again in a new environment, doing things that I want to do and going back to study. But when everything was shaken up end last year, I'm now accepting it that I won't be doing that for now or maybe never. But it's not that bad, in fact, I haven't been happier since I embrace this.