6 degrees of separation

I always thought 6 degrees of separation between humans is a myth. I had always thought that with 6 billion people in the world, there's bound to be total strangers. But what I had never realized is that given a city like KL with 2 million people, those between the ages of 30-50 are really separated by just that 6 degrees. I'm bound to meet one person who has a mutual friend and then, that's the conversation we will have. And that is why, the person I'm seeing, also has mutual friends and in fact, our ex-es are each other's mutual friends. 

I need to get out from KL!!!!!!!

Two sides of a coin

Sometimes I wonder about this. Two sides to a coin, both sides facing away from each other. Both are used together but do we know which side is the up or down? Or is there ever a need to know which is the right side up? Both are equal but distinctively different too. 

I'm always amazed when someone said that phrase. It doesn't mean anything because it just means something can be used interchangeably but with very different effects. Oh well, things to ponder on.  

#100daystransformation

I had been asked numerous times, what is this 100 days transformation and I had wanted to write about this for a couple of days now and it just didn't feel right until today. Today I enter Day 99 of this 100 days journey I started for myself. I made myself commit to being happier and stronger, physically, mentally and emotionally. It was something that I wanted to challenge myself and it wasn't easy. There were days that I was up and there were days I was down. It was just how I could change the way I view things that made me realized that sometimes situations and some things are really not that bad. As long as I take a deep breathe, count to 10 and exhale, I might just have the capacity to believe that everything will work itself out.

In this 100 days, I had started going to bootcamp "religiously" (I try!!). I'm fitter because of it. I've completed my first 10km this year and I'm proud of myself for running almost 7km nonstop. This is really a first for me. This time round, the weather, my body and conditions were good. I had only my lucky stars to thank for allowing me to experience these all. I've learned how to eat right, get my sleeping pattern right (somewhat!) and still get to enjoy my drinks. 

Mentally, I've learned how to NOT lose my temper as quick as it used to be. I can stay focus on some stuff and complete it. Most importantly, I've learned to let go. I've stop feeling sorry for myself and I've accepted certain things and I'm learning how to let things go. I've always felt that there is a need for me to make sure certain things go my way and I usually bull doze my way through. Nowadays, I don't and I pick my battles. Battles that are worth fighting for are those that I bull doze my way with tact. I've learn how to lose some battles too and that's ok. I'm not here to win a battle, I'm here to win a war.

Emotionally, now this is a hard subject to talk about. I'm not emotionally unstable but I do have a tendency to let emotions get the better of me. Especially when I'm dealing with matters of the heart. It is not easy to take control of my emotions and I'm slowly learning how to deal with that. I won't say I have mastered it but I would have to say this, I'm a very blessed girl who have a very strong support system that would never abandon her even when she's in one of her tantrums. I've learn to deal with it and from loving myself to wanting to see others around me happy, it all works out well. Being able to see big smiles on your loved ones face and knowing you had everything to do with it, makes me very happy and contented.

So there you have it, my 100 days transformation. Most important lesson that I take away from this journey, is living it day by day without expectations of what the future brings and face it as it comes along. I'm fitter, happier, stronger and embarking on a side journey with a man that allows me to be open and honest with him and I think, he would allow me to get away with murder too! Come what may the future brings, I choose to have faith in others, hope for the best and love myself and others. 

Rumors and its impact

I love to observe antics of others when it comes to gossiping and spreading rumors. Every single human being indulge in it despite the fact that it can get spun out of proportion. Having said that, I've been the subject of some interesting stories and been listening a lot about what was said of me. There are times I wonder how the rumor mill was spun and how it can spin even further with just a different iterations. 

There has been a lot of stories about me on the work front. Apparently, no one has a lot of care and regards for the current work I'm carrying out, the current stuff we had been doing. What upsets me even further is the fact that no one had thought of consulting me first on what I want to do. Not only was there zero monetary gain, it was double the work and triple the efforts that I'll need to put it. And they had always end their conversation with, its your choice! That's a total piece of BS that I haven't heard in a long time. Not only do I not get a choice, I don't even have a say before the work is piled on!