Late night insomnia

He seems to float in and out of mind constantly. It is true when they say you know about the person more after you break up than when you are in a relationship. B floated in and out of my mind today. And I couldn't help thinking about our good times but then again, I also remember our breakup. It was just sudden and he just went into a shutdown mode. And it was a total shutdown to the point of missed appointments, missed calls, unanswered messages, mails. Everything that he initiated first. It was a frustration. And when we started talking, he couldn't even remember what went wrong. Scary part was, he lied, he deliberately lied to me. And that was when I knew I wouldn't trust him at all. On hindsight, it was probably that, that made me judgemental. All the stolen time on the phone, constant message checking. Let's face it, I've had my fair share of those too. 

Ever believed in karma? I do and it has come one full circle. What I did with AB and K, was what happened between me and B. And guess what, I'm no longer fighting to forget those memories. I'll let it linger, relive those moments, good and bad, and then bid them a farewell. They will be back but they can't hurt me anymore. I wish all of them, K, AB and B, the very best in their future, their lives and their loved ones. I had loved each and every one of them in their own way and mind. I hope for nothing but the best for them. Guess what, I actually mean it.