Still of the night

Silence........

That's all I can hear

Silence........

How I wish you can envelope me

Silence........

It's when the demons come out to play

Silence........

I only hear you in the darkness of night

Silence.........

As you envelope me, I live in fear that all I'll ever hear is your silence....

A very THIRTY birthday!

Worked the whole week, slept 3-4 hours daily and culminated with my 30th birthday. Was actually looking forward to a quiet night that turned out to be a 11 hours drinking session. Work hard and play hard! That's the way!!

When Realization Hits

It is funny how complacent we have become until realization hits. Time is running out and we need to get our asses moving!!!

A Grand Send Off to the Twenties

I started an earlier blog about a young girl that is similar to the Britney Spears' song, "I'm not a girl, not yet a woman". It was just to chronicle my journey from being a geeky teenager, complete with the dark rimmed spectacles and fat. It was a 10 years chronicle although I haven't written much about things of late. 

Now that the start of 30 is around the corner, 12 days to be exact. I don't think I'm anymore the bright eyed, young adult that was trying to find her way in this huge world. There are still times were I'm amazed at how big and large this world is. But as much as I would like to get lost in this world, it has the right balance of beauty and the beast. Beauty that was created a long long time ago and the beast created by us, humans. 

A quick recap of my 20s, I had graduated with an engineering degree, loved the coursework, hated the job. Joined what is probably THE most well known IT company in the world as a management trainee, stumbled onto sales, pimped out project managers and human labors as though I'm their mama-san. Got severely weary at the job, took a month break to Europe, came back and started another job at THE most well known IT security company. Realization hit me then, it is just the same shit, different day. Left after exactly a month into the job and joined my current boss at the start of their expansion plans. It has been 3 years plus now at this company. We might not be a MNC but we are up there in our small tiny little circle. And now, I'm excited at the execution of the next wave that I need to ride.

On a more personal note, had 3 relationships that had ended for various reasons and at varying degree of drama. I choose to believe that at the end of each relationship, you will somehow grow and learn from it. Was it for the better or the worse, I don't have an answer to that. But I have no regrets of each and everyone of them and they all had introduced me to what this world can offer. 

On another hand, my family have been good it is still a blessing that they are healthy without any major pains. And of course, my bunch of girls that are my pillars as well as gossip partners. I've made a few lifelong friends as well in the last 10 years. 

Now that I look at it, I had made mistakes and I had made some smart choices. They don't necessary go hand in hand at that point in time but I wouldn't have traded places as I am who I am now for all the experiences, good or bad. 

I am now back to where I had started it all, sitting in Alexis, blogging away after a very satisfying meal of pasta, coffee and waiting for my dessert to show up. And interestingly enough, in the last 10 years I probably went through 4 different sizes and I might not be the hot chick with flat stomach, BUT I'm a chick with a good self deprecating humor and would like to think I have some brains too.

So let's raise a glass to welcome 30 with arms wide spread and huge grin on my face. For I am comfortable and happy with all that I have. 

CHEERS!