Memories

Ever wondered why memories are always sweet? That's because it's always tainted with emotions and our brain can only remember the good ones. 

Late night insomnia

He seems to float in and out of mind constantly. It is true when they say you know about the person more after you break up than when you are in a relationship. B floated in and out of my mind today. And I couldn't help thinking about our good times but then again, I also remember our breakup. It was just sudden and he just went into a shutdown mode. And it was a total shutdown to the point of missed appointments, missed calls, unanswered messages, mails. Everything that he initiated first. It was a frustration. And when we started talking, he couldn't even remember what went wrong. Scary part was, he lied, he deliberately lied to me. And that was when I knew I wouldn't trust him at all. On hindsight, it was probably that, that made me judgemental. All the stolen time on the phone, constant message checking. Let's face it, I've had my fair share of those too. 

Ever believed in karma? I do and it has come one full circle. What I did with AB and K, was what happened between me and B. And guess what, I'm no longer fighting to forget those memories. I'll let it linger, relive those moments, good and bad, and then bid them a farewell. They will be back but they can't hurt me anymore. I wish all of them, K, AB and B, the very best in their future, their lives and their loved ones. I had loved each and every one of them in their own way and mind. I hope for nothing but the best for them. Guess what, I actually mean it. 

Somewhere out there

Somewhere out there, beneath a pale moon light......

Its been a long while since I last blog. It had been some crazy months and it will be an even crazier period 2nd half of the year. There has been a lot going on for me. From my official work with VADS to my work with Geeky Maven, even more so now with more exciting things in store for Geeky Maven. 

Surprisingly, I find my days a little more fulfilling and loads of amusement with my team. Somehow the work doesn't seem so monotonous and definitely seeing the humor side of it makes it easier. 

I have also started on a lot of DIY stuff. From cleansers, scrubs to soaps, I'm enjoying how much fun all these is bringing me. I can't wait to try out different oils blends, essential oils and learning a lot more about it.

Bullshit

Have you ever been with a man that just keep telling you BS after BS after BS? And you lie awake at night wondering why the hell he did it and why is it till now the stories doesn't match? Well, take that one man and then add another man. There you have my last 3 relationships!! And I now wonder, is that my pattern? 

Trust

TRUST. A really simple word that can make or destroy everything. It is really not easy to trust someone. It is very true when you say trust is earned. Its not something you can gain easily. No one will trust you at first sight. I still remember a very dear friend said before, trust no one. 

I trust people easily and freely. This is because I've learned that we should all give everyone the benefit of doubt. But nowadays I don't and I know I'll never fully trust someone. Even if it is someone that I'm sleeping next to. How do you let go of the past hurt and not let it affect your future? How do you learn to trust someone else again?

Yes or no?

Do I tell him or not?

All hail the new generation of keyboard warriors!

I can't believe some of the shallow minded Malaysians at this time. While the sad news of MH370 flight, Beijing bound, is missing, there are some who are spreading rumors. What saddens me the most is that the rumor came from a news agency. I admit our local news agency are not the best but this is stretching it way way way far from acceptable. Not only that, there are some that took it upon themselves to start criticising Malaysian Airlines management and maintenance processes. Seriously, when there are 239 people missing with infants and all, we have our own generation of keyboard warriors that starts spreading rumors and missing the whole big picture. 

Do they know that airlines have strict rules with regards to service and maintenance for all aircrafts? Accidents do happen, lost of communication happens and yes, it's a freakish incident but it doesn't mean it is due to lack of maintenance! Yes, MAS suffered millions or billions of losses, but there are other reasons for losses and not just cutting corners off! 

Well done, we have raised a generation of keyboard warriors that don't check their facts and like the saying goes, "the pen is mightier than the sword", the pen has been replaced by a keyboard. Yes, everyone reserves the right to comment and it is their right to do so but please do so with some ounce of brain activity to it! Don't believe everything you read, don't accept everything you have been given, don't be quick to judge and have one sided view! 

I'm truly sadden by the fact that I'm blogging this, MH370 is still missing and we have a bunch of keyboard warriors that is totally missing the point. I pray for the safety of those onboard MH370 and staying positive is the key now. As for the keyboard warriors, please use your brain more!